A lot of people are without power here and further up North after a wind storm but we were lucky. Alex is off work for a few days and so I don’t have to worry about him getting to and from.

I find myself just wanting to stay inside until Christmas, ordering all of my Christmas presents online and having my groceries delivered. I am tired of being cold and wet. I am tired of the crowds. If I win lotto I am going to hire a car and driver. I don’t even care what kind of car it is, I just don’t want to have to drive. All of the cars seem to be going so fast to me. I feel better when my feet are on the ground. I don’t understand all of the celebrities getting DUIs. They can’t call a cab?

It is almost Christmas and it feels all wrong. It doesn’t seem real.

My camera is still broken. I have the money to have it fixed; it’s just such a long bus ride. I already spend hours on public transportation each week. People of the world, bathing and deodorant are good things. Putting on so much cologne or perfume that you almost kill your fellow passengers, as if you are wielding a large atomizer of Human Raid, isn’t kind to fellow humans. People of the world, do not put on “extra” because you think it will fade on your way to work/school/your probation officer. What is fading is the person sitting beside you. I want to open a window but if I do there is always at least one person who bitches about being cold and letting the heat blow out the window. Cool, fresh(er) smelling air is better than warm foul smelling air. Is anyone with me on this?

I wish you all well, and may you enjoy quiet moments with your loved ones during the holidays. I am trying to see how many months I can go without stepping foot in a mall. I’

I’ve made it almost 12 so far. My hell will be a mall where I’ll have one panic attack for all eternity, a constant case of diarrhea, and the only music will be bad country and Jazz muzak. Actually my version of what my own personal hell would be like varies depending on my situation. What would your idea of hell be?