I’ve shown the first sign of sanity in ages by making a deal with my supervisor to get a few days off. I even drained the vacation time that I have earned in the last seven months because I can. I have been doing a lot of sleeping. I watched a really bad movie, P.S. I Love You, and cried good hard cries, stopping the movie to do so. It felt good. Also, hello Gerard Butler. Your accent drives me mad crazy horny.
I have come up with a list of steps I plan on taking to launch Operation Feel the Fuck Better 2008. I didn’t write them down, but I should have. Regardless, I am feeling a lot better. A lot is two words. I have basically decided to take the following steps:
1) Eat on a regular basis, instead of forgetting to eat until I am dizzy and sick, and then being tempted to binge eat.
2) Take my medications as prescribed. This might seem really obvious, but with all of the hours spent working on the graveyard shift and trying to sleep during the day, I sometimes can’t remember whether or not I’ve taken my pills.
3) Walk more.
4) Laugh until my sides ache, often. (Even if I am laughing alone).
5) Ask for help when I need it.
6) Take the time to pamper myself in some way on a regular basis.
7) Say No (and then forget about it) more.
8) Stop waiting until I am thin to live my life. I’ve lost twenty lbs., and instead of feeling good about that, I am thinking of the other 20 I need to lose.
9) Learn to let go, even if it’s just a little bit more.
10) ? I can’t remember, but I can’t think of anything other than the fact that I am out of cigarettes right now. One of the steps was not to quit smoking. Oh yeah, sleeping. Making the time to sleeeeep.
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Anyway, hi. How are you?
' December 17th, 2008 at 07:48am 8 comments
hi…first time commenter–i love your blog!! congrats re the 20 lbs–that’s really amazing. as for remembering to take your meds, this sounds super old person-ish, but have you maybe thought about using those little plastic dispensers with the days of the week on them & a little plastic box for each day? that way you would always know whether you had taken your meds–either they would be there, or not! good luck, and pls ignore my assvice if you want–i always am unsure about suggesting things on people’s blogs–because i don’t know what their lives are like, what they’ve tried, what works for them, etc., but you seem really nice…so i went for it
good luck & happy holidays.
I’m fine and it sounds like you have more determination than I’ve shown of late.
I think your list is great.
I also think it’s quite fantastic the way you’ve gone back to work. It must feel good to be so productive.
I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas!
Step 2.1: Get a days of the week pillbox so you can tell if you’ve taken your meds or not.
Hi Wilma! And welcome to my site. I am glad that you commented. The day of the week pill holder is a great idea (Thank you also to Denise, and hello to you as well!). I actually think that I have one around, somewhere in this house. I can remember my Mom giving me one when my children were little and being nervous about using it because it wasn’t child proof. Now I don’t have to worry about that anymore, so I will look for it.
Hi Thursday. I am glad that you are fine. I am feeling determined to not be the person who always feels like she’s headed for a nervous breakdown but never does a thing about it. Hopefully I can stay on track with this. I am an excellent caregiver for others, but I stink at caring for me.
Hi K. Merry Christmas to you and your family as well. Working full time has always been a struggle for me since I had children. I can never seem to juggle it all and I end up letting things slip, big time. That’s where the learning to let some things go will come in handy.
As for the losing 20 lbs.; I didn’t even try. Apparently not drinking such copious quantities of beer and liquor has a slimming effect. Who knew?
Damn! Too late to get the feedback.
I REALLY like your list. Number 7 is a doozy. The guilt, the guilt. I heard that assertiveness was the ability to say no without waiting to get angry.
Have a lovely Christmas.
You are never too late here Cynthea, you are just in time. I like that thought about assertiveness. I get so angry sometimes, hold it all inside, and it just turns into more depression, and regret. I believe and long for release.
Merry Christmas from me…Thanks for being here.
I am an excellent caregiver for others, but I stink at caring for me.
Boy do I know how that is! And, my dear young lady, that should be #1 on your list – start taking care of “me”. It doesn’t come easy or quickly, so plod along, even if it means taking baby steps.
Overall, OFFB (Im gonna steal that!)looks like a winner of a list. Here’s hoping you have a wonderful holiday season. Warm hugs and wishes sent your way!