I Don’t Know

I wrote something over the course of this time on my stomach, painful, sometimes high on prescription drugs to take the edge off this pain and it is angry, bitter, long and hate filled. For the first time I feel really scared to be even more exposed than I am here. Is anger really a good sign Jean? I keep trying to stifle it. I have long known about the balance of love and hate in relationships and I would never want to paint myself as a victim because I’ve made some really fucked up choices and I am not easy to live with. So, do I post it, just as it was written over those days filled with hatred or are there some things you just tuck away? I don’t know.