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I kissed the top of his head last night, the only spot above the neck where he doesn’t feel compelled to wipe my kisses away immediately. “I wanted to thank you for taking care of me when I was in so much pain.” He rolls his eyes, doesn’t believe me, continues to look at me [...]
' January 28th, 2010 at 07:16pm 4 comments
I wrote something over the course of this time on my stomach, painful, sometimes high on prescription drugs to take the edge off this pain and it is angry, bitter, long and hate filled. For the first time I feel really scared to be even more exposed than I am here. Is anger really a [...]
' January 27th, 2010 at 04:53pm 1 comment
I have Sacroiliitis in my hips. I don’t know how to pronounce it but there it is. This is not something I wanted to write about. This is not the way I planned to start the year. I had a steroid shot in my right hip last Thursday. My left hip is scheduled for tomorrow. [...]
' January 25th, 2010 at 05:27pm 3 comments
1993: I sat across from my psychiatrist. She never wore the same shoes twice. She asked me a lot of questions about my childhood. She asked me if I’d ever thought of harming my son in any way. I was horrified by the thought of hurting my baby boy. It had never occurred to me. [...]
' January 1st, 2010 at 12:11am 9 comments
In the months following my discharge from the psychiatric hospital I became fixated on food. Not on eating food, but on researching prices until I’d found incredible deals, buying frequently used items such as flour, yeast, oil, dried beans, rice, etc. in bulk and learning how to store them correctly, and taking advantage of some [...]
' December 16th, 2009 at 10:01pm 7 comments