From the category archives:
In the months following my discharge from the psychiatric hospital I became fixated on food. Not on eating food, but on researching prices until I’d found incredible deals, buying frequently used items such as flour, yeast, oil, dried beans, rice, etc. in bulk and learning how to store them correctly, and taking advantage of some [...]
' December 16th, 2009 at 10:01pm 7 comments
I have been trying to write here, but I can’t seem to finish anything. I set my standards too high and then get disappointed when I can’t make the words dance the steps I choreographed. I have decided to listen to Thursday and Jean and their encouraging words in my comments for my last post. [...]
' October 15th, 2009 at 05:42am 3 comments
Damn, I had forgotten how isolated and depressed I can feel being a stay at home mom. I am reminded of when I was pregnant with Nathan; I was the lead party chef supervising a small group of women on the graveyard shift. They were always kind to me, and I wanted to be the [...]
' September 22nd, 2009 at 04:59pm 11 comments
when I don’t think I’ll make it. Days when I can hardly bring myself to do the very basic things, eat, swallow pills, take my dog out, do a load of wash. I am so tired of fighting. I can’t calm the racing of my heart. My hands won’t stop shaking. I don’t want anyone [...]
' August 29th, 2009 at 02:10pm 6 comments
Remember pagers? Oh, I’ve been paged! Now I need to get to a phone.
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With summer nearing its end my teens seem to want to spend every last second doing either nothing, or hanging out with friends. I feel a rush inside, things to get ready for that probably have already been taken care of. Polly [...]
' August 24th, 2009 at 01:23pm 2 comments